Repeat. Rewind

Alone is;
coming back home at 12
eating a cold dinner, slowly chewing thinking of all the times the mother wanted to feed you food, hot. the concept which was then lost to you
watching movies half way through wondering what exactly is going on
still sleepless at three. reading pages after pages and then realising you dint get any of that
go back and try reading again
download music sheets and try playing the guitar soon to give up.futile.
play scrabble with yourself.
wish the boi was online
finally fall asleep after having done a quick recap of all sick things that has happened.
the re cap rushes you into sleep as the poor heart says to the brain: drop it. let her off.
wake up. around noon.
gym.
shower
go to work. preferably early. at least you can see people.
come back at 12.
repeat.
repeat
repeat