Loosen Up

Letting go of someone dead must be easier.
letting go of someone who is now telling you that she is old enough and can make decisions fr her self, is just plain painful.
cos somewhere as much as i want to agree and say "sure, u are def grown up", am also torn between instinct and that whole gut feel thing.

i wish i had an elder brother instead.
well not really.
but a little.
a sister is head ache
and a sisters boy friend who goes " please dont be mean to her! she is special you know!!"
I KNOW!
who on earth made him commander in chief
of course i know!
and then you say back, feeling extremely foolish " you might want to remember that we are her family, so we know whats best fr her, you take care, goodbye"!
to which this guy goes " dnt wish me good luck, all my luck and happiness you have taken away now"

what dyu say to all this!
cmon you are 19! why dont you just be normal and have fun INSTEAD of senty and heavy emotions which def dnt suit you right now.
there is time coming up fr it, later.
right?