Drifting away

There is so much left to do and if i go by what the astrologers say about me then all i got to do is wait. apparently it will happen for me,slow and it will chug along and finally on one fine sunny morning il wake up and suddenly it will hit me: ha,this is my day.
right.
chug makes me think of trains,i havent been on a train in while. maybe i should take the train this time instead but chennai is bound to be too hot and i am not sure arriving feeling grimey (isnt that a word?) is going to help my case. why.why do i have to do everything last minute. this time i wont. i WILL book tickets early,i will make hotel reservations early. i will. well i mean i might.

its so hot outside like porgie says you can swim in this humidity.i should meet up with him. but that would inevitably mean eating outside and that would mean food that is currently banned.
speaking of bans. a deoband fatwa has been issued against muslim women working.the self appointed gaurdians for muslims-darul uloom deoband has said that its now "haram" to accept womens earnings. check this if you want to know more.

some kind of almost self inflicted insomnia is doing its rounds. its may,i find may always hard to deal with. i do some time travelling and always comes back feeling hardened and full of remorse and all other things that i try ignoring and that,trust me requires a whole lot of energy.
i am also feeling very low on tolerance and its taking very less to push me off. i wish i dint have to talk to people. for a while.
i dont see that happening right now though esp since am also playing intermediary.

aaah.
i wish they taught kickboxing some place here. i would so go.
why will it not rain. please send some rain. id like some rain.