Guilt seems to be my middle name

This is just too bad. seriously! its like the higher authority in the sky peered down anxiously, and picked me. Hand picked me. to be the person bound forever and forever by one overwhelming feeling. Stoopid guilt.

Exaggerations apart, i am at dad's now. for a week.
and its awesome being here with him. He completely spoils me,makes time for me and buys me many things!
and i can only constantly think of how when i am here i feel terrible that he is so alone. when am there, i feel horrid for her,that she is so alone and when are they both in the same place, they make me wish like i never had to meet them both!
I want to interfere and set things right, make the score even, sort all their problems. But history never lets me.
There jas just been too much pain and sadness and if there is one character who isnt willing to let go and forget then there is not a point, no matter how hard i try.
and in moments of sanity i know that its not in my place to take sides or say anything at all in fact cos who knows it better than the person who had to put up with everything.

But anyway
for now am really happy being here, we went yesterday shopping and he got me this really cool phone.
Its june's phone model except its in purple! and so pweetyyy!
I also got two new nose studs, in ruby and emerald and they are also so pweetty. ok,i seem to be doing that a lot.
We then went to costa and achan complained about the mug size! He is become quite the champion whiner.
But he has lost so much weight and is looking so good! pretty much like my brother, as he claims!

I am going to miss him so so much.