My dad and i live together now. its very easy to get along with him these days, he doesnt annoy me beyond that point and we go out, or do our thing, i like it.
you know a lot of my friends have a kind of relationship with their fathers that doesnt involve a physical closeness.
Hugs and kisses are not allowed, which , i oddly find unsettling.
i could not imagine not hugging my football, which is what i call him btw
so these days my biggest fear is something will happen to him before december, thats my mile stone for now,its gotten so worse that i lie awake at night in my room tossing and wondering and at the same trying to stop thinking so, cos, according to my twisted mind thinking it out aloud could make it happen!
the one thing that helps me fall asleep is surprisingly his snoring which used to completely annoy me at one point.
now i hear this loud funny growling sound and i am comforted back to sleep, knowing he is still around.
yesterday when i got up to pee at 3 in the morning i walked by his room and there was no noise, i waited for a few minutes and still nothing except of course my heart losing its mind!
so i creep over and put my head next to his chest and i hear slow breathing and am just standing there and smiling when he turns over, sees me bending and yells!
well we had a long conversation about daughters who are on their way to insanity is mildly putting it!
but what the hell, i was relieved. for then.
2 comments:
Nice blog.
@ gigi: thank u!
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