Letter to me

Dear me,

I know its hard living with dad,it involves additional doses of patience every now and then, no drinking which is
not a reason cos you dont drink anymore. right? yes,i do believe you said that to me once.
Its hard when he goes on and on about stories you have heard and possibly can narrate youself in the
exact same tone and gestures as him, but you still got to sit and nod along.
it gets annoying when he drags you to social situations cos he wants to show everyone his daughter!
yeah, you are right he doesnt get what a misfit you are and he probably never will.
its hard that you have to entertain him and now then by respoding ie making concversation esp when you are under the blanket with your book ready to nod of when he wants to crib about his driver for a while and about life in general! gasp! thats hard.

well what can i say? let me see if this will help.
keep in mind that there will be some day when he wont be around. where you will be left with just his photos and mails and
texts to remind you of his silly jokes.
you will not have him to hug when you lose your job and you want nothing more than someone who tells you
"screw this, you are good, we will get you something else"
when you will wish that he was around to make up lame reasons, the likes of " but you are look beautiful in saree,than ahem, these faded jeans,hint,hint" and smile goofily,all the time hanging around waiting for you to change.

there will be a time when you will have to buy his perfume and spray it on his shirt to remember
how it felt about those bone crushing hugs that you always protested at.
that, when you dont eat like you normaly hog, no one asks you "are you REAALY ALLRIGHT"
no messages reading " One more time KfC AND WE QUIT.BOTH ME AND U"
The familiarity of a speed dial will cease to exist, cos there is no one to pick up and the memory of those times come rushing back when you hung up saying "little busy dad, call you back" but you never did and it never occured to you that he might have actualy waited for that call,till he finally nodded off.

so what if you have heard it n number of times, listen a few more. does it cost you anything but time? so what if he leaves everything around and messes up what you just cleaned up. you wont always have to do it.
Cos.Tomorrow will never be the same again.
Tomorrow all you have is the photo on your wall and in all likelihood,regret left.
And you know more than anyone what regret does to people.
so get your act together lady.